Its literally impossible to hide…

YUP! Im pregnant and couldnt be happier. This time around i decided i would hide it from everyone until i was 10 wks (and i had fun doing it!!)- i told my family on Christmas Eve that we were pregnant...with twins, it was amazing to share that with them on the due date of my previous set of twins, it was a bitter sweet day. I had my family keep it a secret until i was past 14 wks, at 14 wks i had surgery and had a Cerclage done (you get a Spinal, then the doc basically sews the cervix shut so it cant open until they take the stitch out). After the Cerclage i told anyone that noticed, but i didnt really ever want to make some sort of an announcement...This pregnancy is extremely scary for Tim and I and its hard to get excited and buy things or even talk about our future with the babies cause we know just how fast that all can be taken away.
I started full time bed rest at 18wks (but have been practicing it...not doing anything since i got the Cerclage at 14wks). I am still working from home but now work from my bed on a laptop. I would go CRAZY if i wasnt working 8 hrs out of the day, it keeps me busy and my mind off everything thats going on. The worst part of being on bed rest is the weekend...After 5 days- after work watchin tv or reading im really not wanting to spend all of Sat & Sun doing just that. But its only two days so i cant complain.
Tim has been AWESOME about the whole bed rest thing...meaning he has to do EVERYTHING for me. Make me dinner, do the dishes, fold & do the laundry, clean the house, and most importantly serve me...lol. I felt kinda bad at first asking him to get me a drink and then some food 5 mins later but now we have a system and he knows what i need and want so it works out well. He doesnt complain about it and is always telling me to drink more or not push on my tummy to feel the babies...haha, its cute. But i think that he doesnt mind doing everything for me this time around since he wasnt here with me at all during my last pregnancy and couldnt take care of us, and wants to make sure he is doing his part and doing all he can to help keep these babies inside me!!
We are having a Boy and a Girl- Just like last time...its crazy we would get one of each both times. Its a bit scary cause that makes it feel similar to the last pregnancy when i wanted this one to feel totally different, but if i am unable to get pregnant again at least we will have one of each, so we are excited.
I am 19 wks 3 days today, my due date is July 29th. I am doing weekly injections of Progesterone to make sure i dont have any contractions. I am seeing PPA (Phoenix Perinatal Associates) they delivered my son and daughter last time and know all about my history. I started out seeing them every other week but now i see them weekly, AND the best part about it is i get weekly ultrasounds and they do a cervical length! I have seen my babies soooooooo many times, I LOVE GOING to the doctor!
This pregnancy has already been a different experience with me being on bed rest, having my Cerclage in, going to PPA weekly, but all in all its still really hard to be confident that this time everything will turn out okay. I feel comforted this time around but the scary thing is i felt comforted the last time as well...once i pass 24 wks i am hoping we can feel a new type of comfort!!