Birth Story

I went in for my weekly check up hoping to have my membranes stripped...but found that i was already dilated to a 5 & 50% effaced!! The doc told me to walk the mall for 1 hour to try to throw myself into labor and head to the hospital. I walked for about 30 mins and my feet and back hurt so much and i felt like Zane was going to fall out so we headed to the hospital, i was feeling tons of pressure.
Once checked in i was still at a 5 and was admitted at 7pm on 7/1/10. My time was here finally, iwas finally going to deliver these two and meet them!! It was a good feeling to finally be at the hospital and not be sent home...this time i WASNT going home empty handed.
We did an ultrasound to find out the babies positions...Zane was head down estimated at 6lbs 4oz, Skyler was breech estimated at 5lbs 1oz...(shows you how OFF those estimates are)...
I have REALLY small veins...and after 5 tries the IV was finally started.
I wasnt really in any pain but i was sooooo nervous that the pain would just HIT me and i would be dialed at like a 9 and it would be too late for my to get the epidural (i remember the pain of delivering Titus without any meds and he was only almost a pound and that was almost unbearable), so i got it at 10pm while still dialed at a 5. It was taking me a LONG time to dilate. I was feeling A LOT of pressure but no pain. The doc checked me at 1:30am and i was only at a 6 & 75%!! He broke Zane's sac and with his fingers in me told me that "Zane has plenty of hair"...(he wasnt kidding!!). I was put on Pitocin to make things move quicker.
A little while after he broke my water i felt like the epidural wasnt working... i know you are suppose to feel pressure but i was having to breath through every contraction the pain was soooo hard and it was all from the pressure! I started having really bad back spasams between my shoulder blades... I HAVE NEVER BEEN SOOO uncomfortable my back hurt sooo much. I had to have Tim grab one arm and my mom grad the other and cross them in front of each other over my chest and pull to separate my shoulder blades to re leave the pain. huh, it sucked! The anesthesiologist had to come in and up my dosage to try to help with everything. I slowly progressed over the next couple hours, it took me several hours to get to a 7 then 8 then finally dilated to a 9 1/2. I got to a 9 1/2 around 9am on 7/2. ffffeeeeewwww long night. I remember Tim was sleeping on a chair during the night and i was sooo mad/jealous at him for sleeping while i was in labor. I wanted him to feel what i was feeling. I was upset that over the past year and a half i have been in hospital bed way to many times while he is in a chair next to me, but never the one in pain. I just felt ready to stop being the one with all the issues.
The doc came in and told me that it should not of taken so long for me to get to a 9 1/2...
Over the past 24hrs while in labor Zane's head had shaped itself to the birth canal. He told me the 'lip' of my cervix isnt moving out of the way (i guess when you get close to delivering there is a lip on your cervix that normally moves out of the way on its own...and mine wasnt doing that!) the doc said i could deliver Zane since he is already shaped to fit and would make it out alright...but the concern was making sure Skyler could get out safely. The doc was okay with sticking his arm up there if she didnt turn on her own to come out head first. He could pull her out feet first if she didnt turn...but there was a large chance that my cervix could close on her head...also that she would get stuck, since she hasnt had the past 24hrs while i was in labor to shape her head to fit around that lip...or she could get stuck and then we would have a huge problem and she could possibly die...THIS STUPID LIP thing is what screwed up everything! HUH!!! Sooo either i take the chance and deliver Zane vaginally and pray that everything goes perfect with Skyler coming out...OR i deliver Zane vaginally and possibly have an emergency c section if she got stuck (the thought of delivering a baby both vaginally and through a c section was NOT an option)...all odds were against me and i didnt want to even chance the possibility of loosing another child... So nice big unwanted whole in my tummy here i come! (all this talk with the doc about the what IF'S and my options...lets not forget i am in tons of pain and almost to a 10!! I was feeling like i needed to push and wanting him OUT, the pressure was soo intense!!) Once the decision was made to do the c section i wanted to ball my eyes out!! I just looked at Tim like I CANT BELIEVE THIS! I was soo sad and heartbroken. But i held back the millions of tears i wanted to cry, i didnt want to draw any unwanted attention to myself from my family and or doc i just wanted the babies out and i knew this was the best decision and i just needed to suck it up and hold back the tears....plus i felt like Zane was going to come out any second! I didnt want him to come while i was crying and have to do the double delivery...huh.

Everything was kicked into high gear once i gave the okay for a c section. Tim got his scrubs on and i was wheeled into the OR. My experience wasnt a fun one. While in the OR i wasnt numb enough from the epidural to do the c section...I could feel the doc touching me and the freezing orange sponge thing...huh it was horrible! So while i am feeling the need to push and they are telling me not too i was given ANOTHER huge dose of the epidural and finally the doc started to cut. ALL i can remember after that was waking up trying to catch my breath saying as loud as i could that i couldnt BREATH!!!!!..and trying to look for Tim since i was alone laying there!! (Tim was over looking at the babies talking to the doc about each baby) Soooo... the doc said that i had an allergic reaction and passed out because amniotic fluid got into my blood stream and the reaction made me black out. Then i guess the meds they give to help with this reaction makes you feel like your lungs are closing on you and you feel like you cant breath! Its a CRAZY horrible feeling. So when the babies were pulled out of me and give that first wonderful cry that you've been waiting for for the past 9 months & when the doc holds the babu up over the blue cover in front of you to show you your new baby!...yeah...I MISSED IT! I was blacked out and didnt hear Zane or Skyler's first cry...or cry at all in the OR. Tim was alone in all of that experience...(i am so jealous of him...i will never get those special moments back). When i finally came too and found my breath all i remember is Tim telling me "The babies are doing great and Zane has soooo much hair"!!!... and that was it. The next thing i know im being wheeled to the recovery room. I guess Tim was told by the doc that both babies were going to the NICU...(so we werent expecting the twins to be in the recovery room)... But Skyler ended up only needing some oxygen and that was it! Both kiddos were waiting at my recovery bed for us. I was still kinda out of it but was soo excited to hold both of them and just stare at them. I fell asleep and when i woke up i realized my life had just changed for the better. I now had a family of my own.

Born on 7/2/10 by C section at 36 weeks 1 day.
Zane Titus DeLoach born at 1020am weighing 7lbs 1oz, TONS of long black hair (just like his mama did)
Skyler Blake DeLoach born at 1022am weighing 4lbs 12oz, very tiny and very beautiful.
I weight 204 (yikes) at my doc apt the day before i delivered on 7/1, at my two week apt i had lost 44lbs and was at 160. yeah! (when i first found out i was going to be on bed rest for almost my entire pregnancy, I told Tim "i bet ill get to 200lbs'...huh unfortunately i was right) I guess thats what nothing but laying around all day every day, eating, drinking, and not using one muscle does to ya!

3 weeks old - Tim is 24!

Its crazy to me that my time has come and i am finally a stay at home mama and have two kids! But reality strikes when the night comes and i dont sleep at all. Two babies really is hard, i am always thinking how easy one baby would be.

I am breastfeeding, pumping and supplementing. Even with pumping i am not producing enough milk to solely breastfeed, i just barely got the twins to their birth weight cause they werent getting enough food, it sucked to find that out the hard way. Breastfeeding twins is sooo difficult, i refuse to give up though, breast milk is so much cleaner and the twins like it so much more... but it really is harder then i thought id be. Feeding them at the same time is the best way for me to BF them, but Skyler always falls asleep. Zane is a trooper and does great. But BF is really hard...i feel like i am constantly feeding them cause i cant tell if they are getting enough to eat when at the breast, so pumping and feeding them works better for me...so i know how much they are eating and make sure they get enough. Also Tim or someone else can help me so i can finish twice as fast. Deciding how the feedings will work daily and trying to keep them on the same schedule is my biggest challenge right now.

The twins are 3 weeks old and i am moving them into their room into their crib. The twins make so much noise that keeps me awake, i only wanna hear when they cry and need me, so i decided they`re being kicked out of my room :) Sorry babes!

Skyler & Zane have a diaper rash! UUGGG, its horrible! Its crazy to me that a kid can get a rash when they are being changed every 3 hours if not more then that! I feel so bad for them, poor Zane SCREAMS like i am ripping his arm off every time i change him

Zane is so strong and big! He can hold his head up and he doesnt fit into any of his preemie clothes. He is such a chubby guy compared to his sister. I freakin LOVE his hair!! He doesnt even need any product, if you run a comb through it his hair will just go right into a mohawk, soo cute! Zane weighs 7lbs 7oz.

Skyler is so tiny and i really do love her cry, i know its weird to say...but its just such a cute cry...its probably cause she never cries so when i hear it i know she really needs something and really is sad!! She also makes the cutest noises when she sleeps, like really cute noise!! Skyler weighs 5lbs 3oz.

I AM A MAMA. Its crazy. I pray every night and thank Heavenly Father for sending my two healthy kids & for making my one dream of becoming a mother come true.

It`ll be one year on Aug 6th & 9th that my little angels Blake & Titus were given to us then taken away. I find myself crying more and more the closer i get to those dates. Its hard to hold my twins and not think i should have two one year old babies running around. I cant help but think that Skyler and Zane know them better then i do and actually got to spend time with them before entering this world into my arms. Hopefully Zane and Skyler learned something from them and brought with them some of their personality so i am able know and feel my angels through my twins. I am thankful for what i have and what ive been through, its truly molded me into who i am today.

Family picture before leaving to Tim`s birthday dinner! Happy 24th Birthday lover!! 2nd time leaving the twins, it really wasnt as bad as i thought itd be, it was nice to get away.
Do you like my new look?! BANGS?! I LOVE THEM!! Its my new mom look... I really needed a change but im too scared to do anything too crazy...so bangs was as much change as i could handle :)! Bangs are great! I can throw my hair up and its done and looks super cute or i can wear it down and hardly straighten it and it looks like i spent tons of time of it, love it.





My little sister Rachel holding my precious little girl.
The twins are 3 weeks old, time is flying by.

no sleep is better then no baby :)!!!!!!!!

The TWINS have arrived! On July 2nd by c-section :( @ 36 weeks 1 day...Zane was born at 10:20am 7lbs 1oz, Skyler was born at 10:22am 4lbs 12oz, both healthy as can be & thankfully didnt have to go to the NICU!!

I finally found a second to post some pics, ill post my birth story once i find another minute :)

I LOVE it when Sklyer looks up at me with those eyes, she is so serene and precious...Skyler is such a sweetheart, she is so patient and will wait to be fed, changed and to be picked up! LOVE HER!
Zane is my little needy child. When he is hungry he must be fed asap or else i will hear it from him...lol. He HATES being changed, and LOVES to be held. I love his hair and his dark skin, he is our little mexican baby.
Breastfeeding is going well, i am loving every second of it, its something so special that i am thankful & bond in a way with my twins that no one else can. I wont lie, i am tired ALL THE TIME, feeding two kids, changing them, burping...cuddling and the list goes on its tiring, but i wouldnt trade it for anything. Even sleep...haha.
I am SOOOO lucky and i know it. I love these kids so much. I am proud and more then thankful to say i am FINALLY a mom, and am sooo ready to start my new life as a stay at home mama raising the twins ive prayed for, cried over, and had my testimony tested for. BRING IT ON!!!

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